November 27th, 2007

batschnuff

Scared

What’s wrong with me today? I can’t get rid of this uneasy feeling that’s been following me all day:

It feels as if I’m doing something incredibly wrong. And it seems that with every next thought I spend, it’s only getting worse.

I’m so much behind things, I’m procrastinating and slobbing around when all I should be doing is working my ass off. I lack the spirit and expect everything to turn out the way I want it to.

This is not how it’s supposed to be. And if I can’t get myself to start fighting, I’m very likely to fail – which is something I can't bear. Not this time.