We had class of Psychotherapy today – which, btw, isn’t really as exciting as it might sound: We don’t learn how to be a psychotherapist but it’s more about history, regulations, genral methods and the like. Anyway, today’s topic was relaxation techniques, the most known being Autogenic Training.
I always found this way of “therapy” a bit weird: It’s all about autosuggestion and being told (which kinda screws the whole idea of "auto") you are calm and your arms and legs get warm and heavy and so on. I think I even tried it as an adolescent just “for the heck of it” and just found it rather dumb.
So, following the eternal “learning by doing” we were told to try this method in class and the professor really used some backround music and went “Now, focus on your inner self, tell yourself that you are calm and relaxed, forget outside and stop thinking.”
And as little as I normally believe in stuff like that: It worked.
At one point I absolutely lost any memory of what was happening around me, I stopped listening to his soothing voice and I was completely absorbed in some sort of trance. The moment I “got back” was shortly after I actually fell asleep (because my head fell down which always happens when I fall asleep in class) – which was nicely commented by him “And if you fall asleep, that’s just okay because everything that happens here is okay.” ;)
Anway, I was really mesmerized. For several weeks I’ve been having problems to go to sleep – and even when I finally sleep, I’m haunted by troubling dreams and it’s slowly eating me up and results in me being moody and hyper-sensitive and overreacting.
It’s too bad that I don’t have enough time to take a course in AT this semester. But I’ll certainly remember it when there’s more free time. Because now I’m really fine and calm and relaxed :)